Any type of struggle is familiar to those who decide to leave their country. One form of such a struggle is the struggle with one’s identity and values. As soon as one steps into the new country, one’s identity and values are confronted with those who are not of one’s own. Not surprisingly, this leads to personal disorientation. Values and identities are  influencing each other. Disorientation in values leads to the disorientation of identity and vice versa.

In such a situation, one finds oneself in the state in between. As such, one finds oneself in a liminal state. Should one move to the new values, new identities? Should one grasp the old values, old identities? Delays in answering such questions leave one prolonged in the liminal state. We find ourselves often delay our answers, making sure that the decision we take is the right one. By making a decision---and the absence of it, as yet another type of decision---one shapes one’s identity, one’s value.

What would become of such a person? Would then a new identity, new values emerge? Or one keeps delaying one’s answer and embraces instead the state in between for indefinite time? In this (series) of work(s), we would like to contemplate and investigate this state in between, taking the point of view of emigrants as a symbolic embodiment of the theme. With this work, we invite the public to contemplate, empathize, and think about these issues in relation to their own personal experience.

“nur hin” comes from the contemplation that when one left one’s country, the return ticket is not bought. It is a one-way ticket and one does not know when one will be back. Even if one finally decides to go back,  this is not a decision made in the beginning but rather shaped by times and the process which takes place in it.

“nur hin” is then further divided into three chapters: Tiba (Arrival), Tinggal (Stay), and Kembali (Return). These three chapters symbolize the growth of consciousness that one experiences during one’s journey. In each of these states, one always faces the state in between. Even that state Kembali signifies not only an actual returning to one’s country but also to one’s identity, to one’s values, while at the same time not necessarily the same as the beginning identity and values one has at the start of the journey. Each of the chapters is an independent work in itself but share the same grand thematic scheme with the other chapters. The actual execution may different in each performance, making the theme as the main identification feature of the work.

The work forms a total work, a result of collaboration, consists of performance, music, video and light installations, as well as offering culinary experience made by various artists-friends who share the same feeling of traveling “nur hin”. In each of the theme, using one’s medium of choice, the artist represents his or her experience/impression/interpretation on the theme at hand. The result expected is a series of works that are personal but global at the same time, for most of us would feel this state in between in different sensual forms yet sharing the same essence.

 PT #1    : TIBA
 PT #2    : TINGGAL
 PT #3    : KEMBALI

All picture by Irma FS
Support her spledid works here

Credits :



Video on pt_01
Field recording pt_01
Script pt_01_02_03

Live audio scoring pt_01
Live audio scoring pt_02
Live audio scoring pt_03
Cast/Performer pt_01

Cast/Performer pt_02

Cast/Performer pt_03

Stage Manager pt_01
Lighting Design and Performance pt_01_02_03
: soydivision (2020)

: Ariel Orah, Jan Thedja, Bilawa Respati, Nindya Nareswari, Rizki Rhesa Utama, Morgan Sully

: Rizki Rhesa Utama
: Bilawa Respati
: Ariel Orah, Jan Thedja, Nindya Nareswari, , Morgan Sully
: Ariel Orah
: Morgan Sully
: Morgan Sully & Ariel Orah
: Ariel Orah, Jan Thedja, Nindya Nareswari, Morgan Sully
: Ariel Orah, Jan Thedja, Nindya Nareswari, , Morgan Sully
: Ariel Orah, Jan Thedja, Bilawa Respati, Nindya Nareswari, Morgan Sully
Ghaliz Fikri Haris
Nindya Nareswari